Thursday, December 25, 2008


Well, I made it. Christmas morning and I'm still standing. Last year was too much and I just avoided the holiday. But this year, because she loved it so much, I jumped back into the water the best I could. I baked cookies. I went to parties. I hosted coworkers, and even created my online Christmas journal for you all to suffer through, my own special Advent Calendar From Hell.

And even though I didn't write about it every day, my lily girl has never been more than an inch away. There have been times when I didn't know how to keep going, but she never stopped and that has kept me more or less on track.

For Patsy, for my family in Michigan, for anyone missing a loved one today, and for all of you who keep me going, here is my Christmas wish for you- the most perfect voice with the most heartfelt Christmas song of all time:

Merry Christmas!




rptrcub said...

I hope you had a good holiday, despite everything that's happened and how hard it is to have a holiday without someone so dear to you. Here's to the best to you in 2009.

alto said...

Note to self:

Add this author to the don't check if you don't want the "what he been wailing about" raccoon eyes common to those who read blogs at work when due in a meeting 3o seconds prior.

Seriously though great post, song nothing but less than perfect, your overall tone reads strong.

BigAssBelle said...

this christmas season was something to be gotten through, and then the miracle of a truly lovely christmas eve and day with my family.

it will get better as the years pass. you honor your beloved lily girl with your memories and i am grateful that you share them with us.