Well, I made it. Christmas morning and I'm still standing. Last year was too much and I just avoided the holiday. But this year, because she loved it so much, I jumped back into the water the best I could. I baked cookies. I went to parties. I hosted coworkers, and even created my online Christmas journal for you all to suffer through, my own special Advent Calendar From Hell.
And even though I didn't write about it every day, my lily girl has never been more than an inch away. There have been times when I didn't know how to keep going, but she never stopped and that has kept me more or less on track.
For Patsy, for my family in Michigan, for anyone missing a loved one today, and for all of you who keep me going, here is my Christmas wish for you- the most perfect voice with the most heartfelt Christmas song of all time: